... a chance to AMAZE you."
That is what God told me this weekend.
It never occurred to me that it might be
normal to fear graduation, to fear I might
drop off the face of the "potential planet"
and fail miserably in life.
But that is exactly what I've been fearing
since at least December.
And the funny thing about this fear is that
it turned me inside, it drenched my prayers
in self-seeking, self-glorifying plans. How ugly.
I had no faith. And I was self-centered.
"Give me a chance ... really, give me a chance,
Taylor ... Taylor, just give me a chance!"
That's what I heard over and over on Saturday.
And I said, "OK."
And I prayed.
I prayed freely, and
I prayed for other people.
I was outside myself at last!
I may still fail miserably and I may
disappoint, but I will have faith.
I will forget about my plans.
It never occurred to me that it might be
normal to fear graduation, to fear I might
drop off the face of the "potential planet"
and fail miserably in life.
But that is exactly what I've been fearing
since at least December.
And the funny thing about this fear is that
it turned me inside, it drenched my prayers
in self-seeking, self-glorifying plans. How ugly.
I had no faith. And I was self-centered.
"Give me a chance ... really, give me a chance,
Taylor ... Taylor, just give me a chance!"
That's what I heard over and over on Saturday.
And I said, "OK."
And I prayed.
I prayed freely, and
I prayed for other people.
I was outside myself at last!
I may still fail miserably and I may
disappoint, but I will have faith.
I will forget about my plans.
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In other news, I wasn't cool enough/I never see movies anyway
to see Where the Wild Things Are.
But this song came on the radio this
morning and I adore it!
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