Who I Am

Tonight, at this moment, I am convinced

that the question "who am I?" is answered

by the greater answer of what I am.

I am a child, a beloved daughter of God.

That shocks me, body and soul.

"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and His understanding no one can fathom." Isaiah40:28

I am guilty- very guilty- 

of taking things into my own hands.

I have not trusted God.

I am not concerned for

the things that concern Him.

This world has tainted me,

and I am at fault with it.

I am trying so hard to survive,

but only look to my own

strength and resources.

I try not to... sometimes.

But deep down, that's all I do.

I look to myself,

and not to my Father,

the Creator,

the Almighty,

who made our tides and space

but knows the needs of my heart.

I've abandoned everything

He offers, to try and make it

on my own.

I am trying to navigate alone

this world and my soul,

both of which He crafted,

owns and holds the key to.

I have made His journey

my heartache. 

"They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator - who is forever praised. Amen." Romans1:25

It's going to take a long time,

and it's going to be only me and God.