Trust & Grace

Trust.

Grace.

Trust.

Grace.

God is throwing things at me. 

Scripture is coming from everything I encounter.

I was just writing how God is my steady, 

faithful rock and I want to be like that.

Then I thought maybe I would find what I am looking for in the Bible.

I thought maybe some Holy words would make a good mantra.

So I opened the page my pen was saving from last night,

and I read the passage I read last night.

It looked completely new.

"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. 

Stand firm, then and do not let yourselves be burdened again 

by a yoke of slavery."

Galatians 5:1

I have here in bold what is underlined in my Bible.

I don't remember when I wrote this, but also above the word free it says TRUST.

That freedom is what I long to have, to feel.

There, I said it, feel. I want to feel like I am a Christian, I want to have Light.

I admit, it's getting a little tiring going through the motions without feeling it.

But I keep doing it because the first thing the enemy wants, and the last thing I will do

is give up.

This particular scripture being thrown at me

is significant because it's about my goal for the time being.

No resolutions, no promises, just hope.

Hope to learn what it means to really trust God.

Hope to see myself not work for what He has granted us, to accept His grace.

These are my trouble zones, TRUST AND GRACE.

I've already promised God to give up all of my worries about the future.

Opportunities in life often "parade as light" in front of me, and my tendency

to plan and figure turns into chains and the opportunities become consuming.

My hands are tied and all I can do is pray.

So I have promised God that when any hidden idea in my brain pops-up to

get me to worry or fret, I will pass it on to him and TRUST.

And GRACE. 

Grace will be when I stop jumping from plot to plot, in hopes of being

where God wants me, and accept that He just plain wants me.